Monday, July 30, 2012

BiSEXual Girl: So... You're not GAY anymore??

I don't understand why some people find it so hard to grasp the concept of a person being bisexual; especially if that person is a female. That doesn't mean they want to have sex with any and everybody. It doesn't mean that she likes to have sex with other girls for a man's entertainment or pleasure. If a woman is bisexual, it simply means she likes both men and women.
          I know some of you are reading this like "well duh, I know what bisexual means." But sometimes I honestly don't think people get it. (Yes I am a bisexual woman. I'm not just speaking on their behalf) I've always liked both guys and girls. I kept it a secret for a long time because of religion and fear or what my friends and parents would say or how they would react. I had a brief slip in High School when it came out a little bit, but everyone just brushed it off as a phase... and I let them. Shame on me not being true to myself blah blah blah, yeah I know.
          Anyway, I wound up dating a girl, and I cared about her so much, I couldn't imagine hurting her by introducing her to people as "my friend" knowing it was much more than that. People were shocked. Some stopped talking to me, others said it was just a phase... Again. Although she and I were together for over a year, it ended, and my next relationship just happened to be with a man. Now everyone is asking "so you're not gay anymore?"..... 
          Seriously?? *sigh* Let me try to explain in laments terms.
1. I never said I was gay. I like both sexes, that makes me bisexual. When I'm dating a woman, it doesn't make me gay, and when I'm dating a man, it doesn't make me straight. I can understand those assumptions coming from people who don't know me, from the outside looking in; but my friends?? Come on guys... get it together.
2. I never "switched teams." I never picked one to begin with ;-)

My question is, why is it so serious for you to put a label on who is sexing me? Whether I am called gay, straight, bisexual, weird, confused, or when ever else people choose to call me, it doesn't change who I am, what I like, or who I'm with... So HOP OFF LoL the labels are for you, if it helps you sleep better at night.

When I said you in this entry, I did not necessarily mean "YOU" the reader, but if you took offense or were moved the wrong way, then I am talking to you...

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

L.U.S.T.


Although I want you here and now
I do not dare to break the vow
I made
So long ago
A commitment to me
And also to He
That's when it became a "We" kind of thing
That was before I met you
And now, as I reminisce on the times gone by
Those joyous occasions 
Turned to laughs done dry
Tears in my eyes, and worry in my head
Do I dare enter another man's bed?
Does another woman belong there?
Would it make it okay?
See now I'm getting carried away
I can not
I shall not
I will
NOT
My will to "not" is growing thin
If only the sparks that flew
When I was blinded by love
Would begin again
But then again
If I was blinded, then
How could I see?
He, Me, and also We
Then there's you
From a distance
Like an oasis in the sand
Perfect in my mind
But always out of the reach of my hand